Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Valerie's Diary Entry March 2nd, 2010

Valerie always used to keep a diary of her thoughts and feelings. I have been trying to keep a diary of her thoughts as she goes through all that she has to go though.

I'm going to expose a portion of her diary as it is getting harder for all of us to know what she is feeling. This is an invasion of her privacy, but i think it is important to let you all know how she is feeling and what she is thinking about, as it is becoming more difficult for her to express herself the way she used to. When we interact with Val we need to all (myself included) be more aware of what she is feeling...  

She was upset on this day so I tried to find out why... I asked why she was upset... I typed what she said verbatim: 

VALERIE
MARCH 2nd, 2010

" I'm starting to see if...

And I hoping that I can talk to you...

Sometimes nobody listens to me. They never listen. I'm an invisible..

Everybody else yells and I stay in the back
So I stand back and watching instead of living it.

Shut up 

Because everybody around there yelling 

Even when I'm around people I sit back 
Nobody listens... it's not worth it to yell out

I talk about things and they don't hear anything 

They listen in one ear

You don't listen sometimes your not listening to me. (she is referring to me at this point)

Everybody does that.... everybody yells

I know people that I like...
Because they are kind because you can have conversations

They want to hear their own...what they have"

Tuesday march 2nd 2010



I know this may upsetting, however it is the least upsetting excerpt from her diary to date...

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